I got up early yesterday, and yet I didn’t post. With all the sadness on the news and my kids starting back to school, I have a lot of heavy thoughts rolling around. And so, I am somehow once again falling into the trap of thinking that I have to post something profound or at least good and worthy of other people’s time, instead of writing for my own practice. Part of the point of this blog (and my regular instagramming) is to fight my urge for perfectionism. Done is better than perfect. Write the piece. Put it up. Take the selfie. Put it up. Incessant editing and filtering and correcting and manipulating are not constantly necessary; I am good enough without it. Hopefully practicing these SMALL risks will help me get more comfortable taking some of the BIGGER risks that have the potential to make a life spectacular.
On a separate note, I like having my mornings back. A little “me” time to write and plan and exercise and get ready for the day. I need to figure out a way to get in bed a liiiittle bit earlier though! 7.5 hours seems to be my sweet spot for sleep…the amount of time I need to avoid random midday tears and unnecessary anxiety over irrelevant things. The last three nights, with a 5am wakeup call, I’m hovering around 5.5-6.5 instead. R’s 4-month vaccines certainly haven’t helped; he’s had an extra feed the last three nights and more restlessness than usual which keeps me on high alert. I think I need to be sliding in bed around 8:30 most nights to make this routine work.
Finally, on a side note, Microsoft word is really upping its game when it comes to language. It made 4 suggestions for more concise writing, and I liked and accepted them all. Is using spellcheck/grammarcheck/languagecheck the equivalent of an Instagram filter for my writing? 😉 Thoughts welcome!