I’ve been MIA from the blog while I tried to wrap up ALL THE THINGS at work. But now…
Maternity leave has begun.
It was easier walking away this time. Even though my temporary replacement HASN’T been selected yet. Even though I didn’t get a chance to transition someone into the role. Even though our performance isn’t great at the moment, and even though there was a lot of change announced this week.
In the past, my ego was bigger. I figured things would fall apart while I was gone. I thought I had more control, more influence, more gravitas than I really do. I thought the team revolved around me.
Today I know it doesn’t. Note even close.
The truth is, if you are part of an amazing team, they will fill in the gaps for you. They will step up. If you are a good leader, you’ve already shared everything you know with the people around you. There shouldn’t be any secrets or ego or special tasks you keep to yourself to “own” or feel important. Share it, spread the love, give it all away.
Anyway, it’s a peaceful feeling, being officially done. I put up my outlook away message, turned off every badge and notification I could find, hid all my work apps in a single folder on the last screen, and exited the group text conversations. I’m going to let the battery on my laptop DIE. I am truly, seriously, completely OUT until my leave is done in early October, and I am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to shift focus. Every family should get paid parental leave, and I am #pfizerproud of my company for leading by example.
Today I went for a hike with the girls and Grampy. I took a nap. I did some laundry, paid some bills, set up the crib, and wrote a blog post on a Saturday night! Not a bad way to start things off…somehow, I don’t think I’m going to struggle to fill the time.